Never leave

Currently committing to Health Care of Elderly (HCoE) module in Colchester Hospital. Being here doing this is a mix of pressure and chill together. HCoE is everything of general medicine and I have sure displaced most of it during the summer because I am feeling so dumb in front of the consultants.

Besides constantly being grilled with ECG interpretations, CXR, renal profiles and why electrolytes imbalance is of a problem, there are a few additions to HCoE, like stroke and dementia, delirium, fall etc. Those are the things that commonly happen in the elderly that I did not get much exposure in third year. However stroke really do get the most of my attention.

It is a weird feeling when consultant was explaining, every bits of information is like pieces of puzzle of my late uncle, that I kept going "Oh, I see." As I learn, I normally picture a random patient in my head but it saddens me this time to have all his images coming back to me, as if he never leaves. On the first week of placement, I went back to my room daily feeling utterly exhausted from all the brain grilling...

and because I need to weep it out. This rotation makes me miss him so much.

PS: Dear 3 years of knowledge, never leave le petit brain please.