I woke up every morning with at least 20 messages on my iphone screen. They were random conversation, late night discussion that I had obviously missed because I decided to went to bed early, they were comments on something that I wasn't around to observe or see, something that I had no opinion whatsoever, or conversation that didn't involve me at all.
Occasionally there were topics that were genuinely important, like uni, practise venue/time, surprise party, picking up friends etc.
And this phenomena which has become more acceptable is when people sit around for dinner and playing their phone together and have a discussion about what others have posted rather than have a real conversation with each other. That kinda upset me later when I realised, oh yes I have met so-and-so but we didn't manage to update each other because we were busy laughing at the pictures on instagram. And even more upsetting when I also become one of those people who start taking my phone and zone out into the other world, ignoring the life that was going on.
This new style of conversing and communicating kinda disappoint me at so many level until I had reach the point where I pressed hard on the apps then they wiggled with an x at the corner, and I deleted the responsible apps for this negative feelings. I crossed Whatsapp, crossed Viber, crossed Twitter, about to crossed Line and Facebook (before I came to realisation that I need to contact this one person this Friday or else I wouldn't be able to pick her up in the middle of London metropolitan, so oughta keep this few apps here for now).
I feel like I am slowing down the pace of life. No 10 events to think about, no 100 'friends' I have to update myself about. Me and Luqman had a discussion about me chucking my iphone away and going back to internetless phone, he was shocked at how I have come to this conclusion to cut myself off from everything.
"I am tired, this world is moving too fast, people have too many conversations over texts instead of phone, we're in a long distance but I hardly miss you anymore because we hang out on the phone too much, I have had enough of smartphones, I don't need it anyway. Phone is supposedly for our own convenience, not for other people's convenience. I'd like to make myself less available and later I can have a long conversation with people over coffee or tea."
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