so many things had happened in between this post and the last, i think i better keep the detail to myself. now, im just going to summarise it.

basically, it is all falling into it's places, not in the way that people would have expected it to be, things are in its places, separately.

looking back to the past 6-7 months, it has been an emotional ride. in a hindsight, now i know what it means by wanting something so much, expecting a 50:50 results and finally getting to the end of it with what i have half expected.

now i can fully describe the process of hurting, because it happened right before me and i manage to record every single detail of it in my memory. well, this experience hurt, but not as much, because i half expected it.

with less expectation, i can easily tell myself "life goes on" and it wasnt that  hard. mourning take less time, moving on was smoother

now i get to go on living and carry around the wisdom "some people are only lessons in life." because i have that experience.

now i have lots of story to tell :)