Aemeyra: Perfect pause between opposing miseries.

Bittersweet October. The mellow, messy, leaf-kicking, perfect pause between the opposing miseries of summer and winter. ~Carol Bishop Hipps

Weekend! Yay! And I am writing this in my warm room in London. Happenings this weekend are - hospital shoe hunting, breakfast with the Hilfiger boys and Najah at Hurdunweki, Amin's house warming at King's Cross and tomorrow on Sunday, coffee session at Liverpool St. Supposedly I am gonna go play tennis on Sunday morning but it's now canceled because Fakhri just caught flu. Ouh, bless you. Dont blame nature for the temperature change.

Autumn is supposed to be my second favourite after spring, but now, seems like the mother nature decides to skip the appetizer and go straight for dessert. Cold winter is here. The icy weather froze my nose when we were walking back from Hurwundeki but the trees took their own sweet time falling their brown leaves. We passed by a park, couldnt resist to snapping a couple of photos with the dried leaves. The boys as always put on their usual Hilfiger pose (hence the nickname I gave them).

At Amin's, had dinner of roti jala, soto and lots of sweet dessert. Obviously he and Nico (his flatmate) bought them and Mira (Nico's gf) cooked the whole thing. The flat was cosy, I love Nico's living-room-converted-to-bedroom and the tiny room for tv and games. It's just nice. NB I hate too much space. I brings the senses of hollow and loneliness in me. burr.

It's so good to see people have successfully pass the hurdles in life. Like Amin and Shasa, they established their careers, then Miwa at the age of 27 is getting her phD and Nico has started working. I heard Aliya is goin to do her master, straight after med school. Tabik2. They are among people that I look up to and respect. They know what they want and they go grab 'em. reflecting back on me, hurm, I'm still a baby and I have years to go before I could be proud of myself.

There's the thing that hinders us from getting what we want is our inability to focus, Anthony Robbins wrote in his book. Often we say to ourselves 'how-I-wished-I've-done-this-that' but the next second, we forget and are back to our procrastination, overspending and time wasting. We're comfortable at doing the things we actually wished we didn't do, but we took no action whatsoever to get out of it. The key is change, Emey. Quit complaining dude and change! Even the trees change unwillingly, jadi botak2 and ugly looking but for the best walaupun perit (does it hurt to shed leaves like you shed tears?)