I swim

How do you know that you can't swim before you put your feet in the cold water, soak up, attempt to float and flap those limbs? You don't. It's just an excuse not to try. Similarly, I give excuses to medicine. I pampered myself and allowed myself to not do well just because I don't want to get soaked, cold and tired because medicine at times is soaking, cold and tiring - until one day, I realise that those who don't swim are stuck on the same spot, won't get to the other side and won't see with their own eyes what they could be missing.

I've spent the first two and a half years making excuses, a year to wake up from my disavowals and I'm glad to still have another one and half to go, hopefully to grow a fin.

PS:  To M, thank you for keep pushing me.