Writing is a product

This had happened before and I would not like to apologise. I have countlessly abandoned this blog and return at the moment when time is frugal.

Let's do a countdown

Final Year 5 exam : about 100 days to go
Prescribing Safety Assessment : about 70 days to go
Super expensive revision course : 45 days to go
Xmas break and sahara excursion : less than 10 days to go
Time left to play around : should be zero
Time had been wasted on playing around : countless

They say time is precious, it will never return but it ticks so fast we barely able to keep up. I saw myself spending hours and hours on the computer doing nothing productive. Definition of productive to me is quite straight forward: finishing a book, meeting people, managing chores, learning something new. It is hard to be relaxingly productive when my future (at least for the next two years) is determined by how I do in this upcoming final exam.

Finishing a book? The only book I am peacefully allowed to read is medical book (how dull is that), meeting people when people are either left this country, getting married, getting busy with their lives or people simple disappearing (I have poorly varied circle of friends, boo me). Managing chores? They are done under autopilot setting I didn't even realise I was doing it. Learning something new? Yeah, like re-learning all the things I have left getting dusty in my brain.

Have I forgotten about writing? Yes, write. I have always love writing, only I am lack of ideas of what to scribble about. I write at random places in random books, you can find my writing on a diary on a planner on a piece of paper or between the pages of a textbook. I once stumbled upon my own writing in my Year 1 lecture notes. It was embarrassing but it was a relieve. I should write more rather than staring at computer screen letting the time ticks for nothing. At least it produces something I could read in the future, in between chores or in between jobs in ward, to remind me who I was, who I wanted to be, who I have become.